I won't deny.

I won’t deny that I’m crazy.
I won’t deny that I have obsessions.

I won’t deny that I lie on my bed for hours at a time,
Starring out into space.
I won’t deny that I’ve been in love.
I won’t deny that I’m not even sure what love really is.

I won’t deny that I’m losing my words.
I won’t deny that the world will stay the same,
Even if I had gone away.
Blue will be blue,
Green will be green, and not red.
I wish it would be though.

I won’t deny that I am stuck,
I won’t deny that sometimes,
I do the opposite of what my heart tells me to do.
I won’t deny that I pretend like I belong.
I don’t, and I can’t.

I won’t deny that I play all the wrong notes.
I won’t deny that I hate crying,
Weak I am not, and shall not
Be.

I won’t deny that I am lost.
I won’t deny that I want to be the boss.
I won’t deny that I’ve never climbed a tree.
I won’t deny that I don’t want to lose being me.